there are so many things i want to say to you. but i can't. the words won't come out. even though i wish they would. truth is, i'm scared. i'm scared to death of what you'll think about me. i shouldn't care. but i do. your opinion matters to me. and that is why i kill myself just to make you notice. i need to speak up. there are so many things you need to hear. so many things about me you need to know. but you never will. cause i won't let you.