Friday, April 27, 2012

elder bo.

favorite topic of the year: elder bo bybee.

i can't even help i think. thinking about him all the time that is. i can't stop really. i find myself facebook stalking his profile, and even when i don't even realize i am smiling at a memory we had together. it has been some of the hardest times and some of the best since he has been away. i wouldn't change it for the world.

elder bybee & elder dustin. texas channel 5 news tv stars.
 teaching mark twain.
 6 month party.
 my personal favorite. he calls it
"dawning of a new day"

he is quite literally the most wonderful thing 
that has ever happened to me. 
even when he is all the way in the south of texas. 
lo amo. con todo el amor de mi corazon.

Sunday, April 1, 2012


sometimes bad things happen. even though you really really really didn't want them to. you don't even know whats happening, til its gone. all you can do is cry sometimes. cry as they hold you and tell you how sorry they are. i am so sorry. over and over and over. but you still cry. just let it out. and it makes them so unhappy that they hurt you. but i have always been a bigger person. and i am quick to forgive. i forgive you. i do. with all my heart. its all going to be okay. i know we have alot we need to work out, so i'm going to try. i'm going to try helping you. and making sure you never feel so unhappy again. because i think i am a helper. and i want people to be happy. so smile. it's okay. i forgive you. it might take me awhile to trust you. but just know i am going to try. and i know we aren't the forever type, so i will try and help you for the next great thing that will happen to you. don't you worry. i won't give up on you.