Sunday, January 24, 2010
there are so many things i want to say to you. but i can't. the words won't come out. even though i wish they would. truth is, i'm scared. i'm scared to death of what you'll think about me. i shouldn't care. but i do. your opinion matters to me. and that is why i kill myself just to make you notice. i need to speak up. there are so many things you need to hear. so many things about me you need to know. but you never will. cause i won't let you.
Friday, January 22, 2010
if you need to cry... it's okay. letting out emotion is good. it lets the heart release some tension. it allows you to cope with overwhelming feelings. it is good. crying doesn't make you weak. if anything it makes you strong. strong people can share their emotions with others. be strong. don't be afraid. you are not the only one who has ever needed a shoulder. life is meant to make you cry. so go ahead. it's okay. cry if you have to.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
hello world. today i am happy. happy in a weird way. i look up at the stars and realize what a tiny part i am in this universe. one small soul in the midst of millions. but that makes me happy. there are nebulas and stars and galaxies, and my little soul is a part of that. that makes me happy. even though life can throw you black holes that seem to suck all the life out of you. that's the way it's supposed to be. and that makes me happy. that i am important enough to have feelings. that i matter, just me. my one soul in this gigantic universe. i matter to someone. and that is the happiest thing i could ever imagine.
Friday, January 1, 2010
happy new years blog readers. we have officially found our selves in not just a new year but a new decade. a decade of change. go ahead make your resolutions, decide today to make a difference in the world. my resolution is to be a new person. the person i wish i had been all these years. a person that everyone can get along with and is content with who she is. new years brings new changes. embrace them now, so we can have a better looking tomorrow.