Tuesday, January 20, 2009

apologies.

It doesn't matter how many times you say "I'm sorry" none of them really matter unless you mean it. sometimes it's easy to say the words but it is hard to actually mean it. most don't want sympathy... to be pitied upon. they want you to get it. and it's hard to get it. i'm sorry i don't understand. i'm sorry i'm not as good a friend. i'm sorry i can't bail you out. i am sick of meaningless apologies, but at the same time i'm sorry i'm giving them to you. i don't get it, i haven't been there... but i want to. until then i'll be there if you need a shoulder to cry on. or someone to hold you up. let me get it.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

jerk.

jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk jerk!!! and yes this is dedicated to you curly.

growing.

we are growing everyday... we can't help it. sometimes it hurts, sometimes it sucks. but that is how it goes. it is going to suck it is going to hurt... life isn't just taking a step into a kiddie pool... it is taking a huge leap of faith off the high dive. that is how we grow... we take that leap, we push ourselves harder everyday. your going to fall, and it'll hurt.... but everytime you get back up you grow...

don't be afraid to grow... you only get to live once.

do.

with new years come new goals that last a few weeks and then are filed as a lost cause somewhere in the dank and dirty filing cabinet in our brains. everyone seems to want to change in someway or another. everybody can talk about it, but what does that really do? if you want to change shut up and do it. you can be a better you so long as you go and do.... what are you really waiting for?

identity theft.

Be who you are. your voice is one of the single most important factors that contribute to who you are as a person. when that is stolen what do you really have? don't take someone else's voice, how can you be the true you if you are pretending to be someone your not. people will respect you for speaking out as you... not for being an identity thief. your voice is unique you don't need to copycat someone else's to have that special quality. you've already got it. be you not them...

Saturday, January 10, 2009

independent.

can you stand on your own? in our lives we have many things that hold us up... we are dependent... we can't stand on our own yet. we don't know what it feels like to fly away from the nest completely yet. we are the 6 year old trying out a two wheeler for the first time... with daddy holding on tight. it's time to let it go.... fly on your own. be your own you. let others help you... but learn to walk by yourself first. so when you are the only one... you can rise when you fall.

undecided.

sometimes it's hard. it's hard to move on. and sometimes it's hard to choose. you are undecided. and it's going to be hard especially when it comes to being undecided in the boy department. as i established before... the middle man is always involved in everyone elses business... so i know. it's hard. one minute you are totally smitten by one and the next by another. it's hard because neither of them have your heart... but you have both of theirs. it's time to be decided, hearts are fragile things when being toying with. you have to give your heart to one.... it can't be shared any longer... the longer you go the more it's going to hurt.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

definition.

a definition is not only a wordy explanation found in a dictionary... it is way to make a statement... to let yourself be known. are you the punk? the prep? the jock? the nerd? does it matter? don't take someone else's definition for you... take your definition of you. you are who YOU want to be. no one can slap a label on you... the definition of you... is what ever you want it to be. look it up.

dance.

I dance not to impress... i dance for me. i dance to show the world who i am. i dance to be what i want to be. i dance because that is what i know. i dance in the rain. i dance til it hurts. i dance because i am a dancer...

middle man.

Middle Man noun- 1) the one person who is stuck right in the middle of everyone's drama... namely boy drama.

one word of advice... don't be a middle man... middle man means you are get unnumerable texts from people you hardly know... because your best friend doesn't have texting. middle man means you are entitled to giving up every single bit of information you have to the other party.... sometimes it gets really insanely confusing... expect that... drama is one big fat ugly ball of confusing. just stay patient, endure to the end... because usually at least one of the parties actually mean something to you... and this might possibly mean the world to them... the texts i could live with out... but what ever... once a middle man always a middle man...

P.S. I love you AGENT 72... so no worries... i'll always be there for ya... until you get texting. jk. always... and forever. :)