Friday, July 11, 2014

12:24 am

I have been so unbelievably happy these days. Yesterday I had the chance to see one of my greatest friends Janae. Sitting in the rain, soaking wet, watching a softball game. The environment was not ideal but seeing my good friend brought me such great joy. I had been worrying a lot lately and she had just the right things to say that changed my perspective right around.

As the day concluded I was driving down the street with my favorite song blaring from the speakers. At that exact moment I was overcome with  peace and joy. I looked at the clock. 12:24 am.

I know times are going to get tough and I will undeniably freak out sometimes. But I have 12:24 to hold onto and remember in my hardest times that I have experienced pure untainted joy and love for life. Thanks Jay for helping me find my 12:24 moment. It's a good life.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014


things are different now. my once sweetheart and former love of my life is engaged to a different woman. many people would find bitterness and hatred out of a situation like this. but to this i say,{ love is love.} though my love is different now, true love is pure and will last through even the most trying of circumstances. i loved my bo with all my heart, and i know we didn't work out. we chose different paths. but just because our paths no longer lead to each other doesn't change the {love} i once had. all the beautiful memories we made, and the tears that we shed. i became a daughter, sister, and aunt to those whom i was not related to. and i had the opportunity to find a version of myself that didn't need a second half. i could stand on my own. for this i can say i regret nothing. pure love is finding joy in the other's happiness. it is not selfish. though this love has morphed from a romantic to a platonic, i am not angry. i am not disappointed. i am happy that the man i once {loved} so dearly has found the person who will carry him to eternity. i had my fair share of mourning but i have grown strong, and i can stand. i am ok. my happily ever after is much different than i thought it would be just a year ago. but i am happy where i am. and i can smile that i am alive and that there are people that {love me.} The great thing about love is that there is plenty to be shared. there isn't ever just one true love. so i know things are different, but i don't have to be afraid of change, and i don't have to be angry. everything will work as it should.