hott.

i've been thinking. hazardous right. i'm sick of being the "hott" type. i don't want to be like that. i want to be beautiful and fun and the kind of girl guys want to have a relationship with. not that i need or want one right now. but i'm just that hott girl. no respect. i'm not even. at least i don't feel that way. i'm sick of people telling me that i'm jealous when i'm really not. and i'm sick of being the girl people think is so easy to take advantage of. and i'm sick of people turning their backs on me. and i'm sick of the looks i don't even have. i hate my looks. i hate them. hott is not a compliment to me.